I have been having a “blog-block” for a bit now, wanting to write but unsure what to write about, other than my usual “Randomness” posts, music posts, and family posts.  I mentioned my dilemma to my friend Mindy and she suggested sharing my testimony.  In non-Christian-ese, that is the story of how God has worked in my life up to this point, how Jesus came to be my Savior and King, and how the Holy Spirit continues to work in me and around me.  It is a never-ending and miraculous process, better than the best marriage.  It is a relationship above all others.

There is a song we started singing recently at church called “Breathe on Me” by Todd Fields, and Christy & Nathan Nockels.  From the moment I first heard it, I loved it.  Here are the lyrics:

Find me here, in this place, Son of God, saving grace
At this hour, all my days, Breathe on me, breathe on me

Morning star, shine Your light, As I walk through this life
God of power, God of might, Breathe on me, breathe on me

Forever, You are my reason for living
Merciful Savior unending, Breathe on me

When I’m weak, you are strong, Your breath in me will be my song
In You my King I belong, Breathe on me, breathe on me

Forever, You are my reason for living
Merciful Savior unending, Breathe on me

Forever, You are the God of my story
Write every line for Your glory, Breathe on me

That last part of the chorus strikes me the most.   “You are the God of my story, write every line for Your glory!”  Even before I surrendered myself to a true relationship with Christ, He was already the God of my story.  Hindsight is better than 20/20, and looking back I can see so many instances where His Hand was all over the events of my life whether it was protecting me, putting me into a position for the best opportunities, to be educated and nurtured in the best possible way, and most certainly to be surrounded by those that He would work through to tell me about Him and His ways, the Truth, if you will.  Not hypocrisy, but true Christianity.

Father God, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit continue to be the God of my story, writing every line for His glory, not my own. And anytime I take any glory, any credit, it is my sin – my own mistake and mess-up –  for which I beg and receive forgiveness for.  It is a sweet confidence I have.  You can have it, too, by the way.

It all begins on the day I graduated from high school.  I had no idea where I was going to go college.   As the salutatorian of my class, I should have had big plans, huge scholarships, and a bold future.  Not this girl.  My options terrified me.  The college I rejected and laughed at the most started to appeal to me, because God has a sense of humor in my life, as you will see throughout my God-story. 

The week after I graduated, I humbly called my private piano teacher for help.  She knew the professors at that private Baptist college I rejected  about forty-five minutes from my home, and she was able to get me an audition right away.  Before I knew it, I had a music scholarship and a full academic scholarship.  See?  God was working already.  And He was laughing – I was attending the college I had sworn not to attend. 

In August, I showed up for marching band camp and quickly realized that commuting would not be realistic.  The band director pulled strings to get me into a dorm, and fellow band members mentioned a girl they had met at a church whose roommate had backed out.  She became my roommate and we are friends to this day.  In fact, four years later, she was the one who prayed with me when I surrendered my life to Christ.  See God working yet?

From the moment I entered that college, I was challenged and I challenged others.  I argued and I absorbed and observed.  I saw hypocrisy in some, but I also saw a geniune quality in others that I could not define.   I rejected anyone who pushed religion down my throat, and held to my stance that there was one God over all religions and no one had the authority to know for sure if they were going to heaven for not.  Besides, I’m a good person, why wouldn’t I get in?  I’ve gotten into everything else so far…see how easy it was to get into this school?

….to be continued…